12.12.11
12:28pm
3 years ago
MARCH 2009
I had studied nothing....nothing at all.....
I passed out of my 10th std with 77%,
I was subjected to sarcasm and mocking as I had one of the lowest marks in school,
That day I decided....I shall achieve excellence in academics and show the people that I am no less.
I joined VPUC and an IITJEE Coaching centre called TIME.
1 year passed,
I had not studied the whole year...not even a bit.
Was overbored of the Jee classes,
And ended up leaving it.
MARCH 2010
I got 58% in my 1st pu!
I felt devastated...
That day...when my results were out...I swore ill study so hard for 2nd pu, that it will leave people awe struck.
1 more year down the drain.....
MARCH 2011........
I knew nothing......Nothing at all...
But I was confident that Ill do well.....oh common...I cant screw up 2nd PU.....
I had not even studied a bit.....
RESULT DAY.....
I didn't return home from the cyber cafe for a couple of hours....
34(exempted(just passed) in chemistry)
39% in PCM....48.5% overall.....
I was shattered.......
killed from inside.....
That day....I swore....
done is done......
I screwed it up big time....so be it....
I withdrew all the subjects for march 2012.....my second chance.....
I thought
Ill make use of this year......Ill write JEE and ill get through IIT........loss gets compensated......
JUNE 2011
Base coaching centre for Full timeIITJEE(4ppl who didn't get through jee and have dropped another year for getting through.)
All...I mean all....were extremely brilliant....some skipped NIT's to get into the IIT)
FIRST TEST
I got 11th rank out of 22 people.....
SECOND TEST
I had studied....I was confident....but I was told the day before the test that they will eliminate all those who don't perform well......
I was scared...
I resorted to copying.....................
NEXT TEST
I was told the same.....
But BASE was my only option that could help me get through IITJEE so again.....
I didn't want to take any chances....
I resorted to copying.....again.....
JULY,AUGUST,SEPTEMBER,OCTOBER,NOVEMBER 2011
I left copying after a while.....I was not used to studying for soooooo long so that brought me down a bit
Then.....Work pressure....
Dead lines
Peer pressure
Pressure fro the home department
mocking of teachers
I tried hard to overcome them.....but fell every time....
In the process.....I had apparently read nothing....nothing at all
If I would start with a chapter......
I would have tests the next day...
So I couldn't complete it....it was therefore as good as nothing...
The net result was zero...I had read nothing.....
Nothing at all...................
I was the last ranker every time.....
WHAT NOW................
From 10th std....till date.....every day of my life I have worried about my academic carrier.......
I've planned a time table a billion times....
I've motivated my self a zillion times...
I've kept hope every single time I fell...
I've tried to study every time possible....
I've failed every single time...
I've always tried to find that "It started on that day" moment......
I've always tried self motivation....I've written a million...."done is done...it all starts from today"...phrases in my personal diary.......
I've always wanted to be known as "the man who fell and never lost hope" guy.....
I've wanted to study for knowledge many times....
I've always been like....."fine...from now on...no distractions...lets study continuously for 18 hours until the finals"..........(though I didn't even study for 18s!!).....
I've basically wanted a Bollywood style...picture perfect finish......
I've been through this process every single time....
and....
I've FAILED every single time......
And may be that is the reason I'm writing this blog.....to show the world that even though I screwed up I managed in the end........
May be I think I'll get into IIT and when my friends ask how I did it...ill send them my blog's link.....
Its all repetitive.....May be I'm going to repeat the same old thing....The same old FAILURE....
May be I'm just deceiving my self that "ill do it bro...chill"....and then procrastination and then FAILURE.....
And to top all the madness....I aim to get 'first' rank in IITJEE....
DREAMER......and nothing else.....
And the best thing about this is that I still think ill give the blog's link to the media when they ask me how I got first rank in JEE.......
("Readers can laugh"!!!!)
I never stop to dream big.....even after multiple efforts to stop.... I just can't stop....I donno why......
My present academic status is so embarrassing that I can't even tell that to my self....
I've read nothing....I know zero in pu and zero in IITJEE........Z E R O .......
I left base a week ago.....
Now on "paper"....
I cant get into IITJEE....that is so sure....
People have not got into JEE after studying for 3 long years......and me...
I don't even have 2 months....
Estimations say that the possibilities of me getting into jee is 0.0001 %.......No matter how much I study.
But again...its on paper.....
So,
Its 12th December now....
I won't say I will study full on from now....
I won't make promises like before.....
I've been through this a lot of times before....
But yeah I surely wanted to show the world that anything is possible.....
all it takes is aim,courage and determination.......
But it bogs down to one question.....
Why am I studying....?
For the world or for myself....
Well,
Studying for the love of studying is what I really want to do...........
Hope I make this day.....
a "memorable" day in my life.....
or will it(like it's always has) be just another day, I swore to study???
12th December 2011
12:28pm
3 years ago
MARCH 2009
I had studied nothing....nothing at all.....
I passed out of my 10th std with 77%,
I was subjected to sarcasm and mocking as I had one of the lowest marks in school,
That day I decided....I shall achieve excellence in academics and show the people that I am no less.
I joined VPUC and an IITJEE Coaching centre called TIME.
1 year passed,
I had not studied the whole year...not even a bit.
Was overbored of the Jee classes,
And ended up leaving it.
MARCH 2010
I got 58% in my 1st pu!
I felt devastated...
That day...when my results were out...I swore ill study so hard for 2nd pu, that it will leave people awe struck.
1 more year down the drain.....
MARCH 2011........
I knew nothing......Nothing at all...
But I was confident that Ill do well.....oh common...I cant screw up 2nd PU.....
I had not even studied a bit.....
RESULT DAY.....
I didn't return home from the cyber cafe for a couple of hours....
34(exempted(just passed) in chemistry)
39% in PCM....48.5% overall.....
I was shattered.......
killed from inside.....
That day....I swore....
done is done......
I screwed it up big time....so be it....
I withdrew all the subjects for march 2012.....my second chance.....
I thought
Ill make use of this year......Ill write JEE and ill get through IIT........loss gets compensated......
JUNE 2011
Base coaching centre for Full timeIITJEE(4ppl who didn't get through jee and have dropped another year for getting through.)
All...I mean all....were extremely brilliant....some skipped NIT's to get into the IIT)
FIRST TEST
I got 11th rank out of 22 people.....
SECOND TEST
I had studied....I was confident....but I was told the day before the test that they will eliminate all those who don't perform well......
I was scared...
I resorted to copying.....................
NEXT TEST
I was told the same.....
But BASE was my only option that could help me get through IITJEE so again.....
I didn't want to take any chances....
I resorted to copying.....again.....
JULY,AUGUST,SEPTEMBER,OCTOBER,NOVEMBER 2011
I left copying after a while.....I was not used to studying for soooooo long so that brought me down a bit
Then.....Work pressure....
Dead lines
Peer pressure
Pressure fro the home department
mocking of teachers
I tried hard to overcome them.....but fell every time....
In the process.....I had apparently read nothing....nothing at all
If I would start with a chapter......
I would have tests the next day...
So I couldn't complete it....it was therefore as good as nothing...
The net result was zero...I had read nothing.....
Nothing at all...................
I was the last ranker every time.....
WHAT NOW................
From 10th std....till date.....every day of my life I have worried about my academic carrier.......
I've planned a time table a billion times....
I've motivated my self a zillion times...
I've kept hope every single time I fell...
I've tried to study every time possible....
I've failed every single time...
I've always tried to find that "It started on that day" moment......
I've always tried self motivation....I've written a million...."done is done...it all starts from today"...phrases in my personal diary.......
I've always wanted to be known as "the man who fell and never lost hope" guy.....
I've wanted to study for knowledge many times....
I've always been like....."fine...from now on...no distractions...lets study continuously for 18 hours until the finals"..........(though I didn't even study for 18s!!).....
I've basically wanted a Bollywood style...picture perfect finish......
I've been through this process every single time....
and....
I've FAILED every single time......
And may be that is the reason I'm writing this blog.....to show the world that even though I screwed up I managed in the end........
May be I think I'll get into IIT and when my friends ask how I did it...ill send them my blog's link.....
Its all repetitive.....May be I'm going to repeat the same old thing....The same old FAILURE....
May be I'm just deceiving my self that "ill do it bro...chill"....and then procrastination and then FAILURE.....
And to top all the madness....I aim to get 'first' rank in IITJEE....
DREAMER......and nothing else.....
And the best thing about this is that I still think ill give the blog's link to the media when they ask me how I got first rank in JEE.......
("Readers can laugh"!!!!)
I never stop to dream big.....even after multiple efforts to stop.... I just can't stop....I donno why......
My present academic status is so embarrassing that I can't even tell that to my self....
I've read nothing....I know zero in pu and zero in IITJEE........Z E R O .......
I left base a week ago.....
Now on "paper"....
I cant get into IITJEE....that is so sure....
People have not got into JEE after studying for 3 long years......and me...
I don't even have 2 months....
Estimations say that the possibilities of me getting into jee is 0.0001 %.......No matter how much I study.
But again...its on paper.....
So,
Its 12th December now....
I won't say I will study full on from now....
I won't make promises like before.....
I've been through this a lot of times before....
But yeah I surely wanted to show the world that anything is possible.....
all it takes is aim,courage and determination.......
But it bogs down to one question.....
Why am I studying....?
For the world or for myself....
Well,
Studying for the love of studying is what I really want to do...........
Hope I make this day.....
a "memorable" day in my life.....
or will it(like it's always has) be just another day, I swore to study???
12th December 2011
